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At the Bay's avatar

It's so liberating to find someone who mirrors parts of you. I love love, fierce, intimate and daring love. But at age 26, I've had zero love interests because as opposed to you, ironically, I don't go for the low hanging fruit. Never have, never will. I love myself too much to not demand the recklesslove I'm willing to lavish on another. And so I wait. Until the fruit ripens and falls right into my basket.

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fawn girl ☆'s avatar

i would definitely stay keep your high standards! never settle for anything less. the delicious grape is definitely worth waiting for!

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Till The Last Page's avatar

Yeah...I have never been reckless too...I seem all put-together but the ache never really leaves me. I never understand how people get asked out and loved. It all seems so foreign to me. Like reading a book in a language I never learnt.

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fawn girl ☆'s avatar

wow i relate so hard! it does almost feel foreign and scary too, but its always good to stay open, because you never know what’s round the corner. ⭐️

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AimeeSarahCarmichael's avatar

I don’t think I’ve ever read anything so relatable. The bittersweet envy is so true watching your friends get into relationships and have lasting relationships so easy when you’re always the one single. Always wondering why not you. It’s hard and you almost don’t want to admit you want it so much

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fawn girl ☆'s avatar

you’ve worded exactly how i feel! yet i’ve felt a lot happier lately by not making it a focus in my life, you realise how full ur life is already without the added plus of romantic love ⭐️

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LOTUS's avatar

I could relate so well..

Take your flowers.🥲🪷🪷

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fawn girl ☆'s avatar

im glad it resonated! ty for the flowers xx

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Nikola's avatar

Well said all of this!

I find it so fascinating that to admit all of this has a certain feeling of embarrassment that everyone comments on (presumably because it takes a lot of vulnerability).

It has to be one of the most normal (and honorable) human cravings to love and give love back.

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fawn girl ☆'s avatar

i think it does take alot of courage, but it also proves you haven’t settled either!! it is a completely normal feeling, and i think you know when to give it in full to the right person ⭐️

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Sophie Lou Wilson's avatar

This is gorgeously put <3 I've been single for 7 years and could relate to a lot of this, especially the endless false starts and false hope. Thank you for sharing this 🫶 p.s. I love that Liz Phair song

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fawn girl ☆'s avatar

it is frustrating to have so many false starts but i think it also proves you haven’t settled for anything, and life is just steering you in the right direction. and me too!! ⭐️

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Cay's avatar

I feel like this was an unwritten page ripped out from my journal. This was worded so eloquently in a way that feels like would take me 7 drafts for me to comprehend my own thoughts !! It feels so comforting to know I’m not the only one who feels like this thank you for sharing !! 💌

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fawn girl ☆'s avatar

im glad i could cement that feeling into words for you! thankyou for reading :)

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Till The Last Page's avatar

The girlfriend allure struck hard...I have cried so many times over it. Each word felt like my soul's call. I am relieved that I am not the only one feeling all this. I have never been pursued or romanced so it hits harder. But my saying grace is that all my friends are single and never dated just the way I am. So we all feel love is elusive for all of us too.

My mouth was agape and I kept saying so sorry for you throughout the article.

Sending big virtual hugs and love!!!

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fawn girl ☆'s avatar

right back at u! i honestly think u almost have to navigate life not searching for love, as annoying as that sounds, as it seems to come so easily to others. however ur time will come :)

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Till The Last Page's avatar

Thank you girl! I have been going through a major heartbreak from a recent friend. I opened my heart about this and she sent a measly meme - male attention is abundant and of low value. Been quietly crying about this since two days.

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fawn girl ☆'s avatar

that’s quite a harsh and insensitive way of putting it 😭especially when ur explaining ur feelings to someone. she has got a point, but it’s not rlly relevant lol. not receiving romantic attention DOES have an effect on ur sense of worth/ how attractive you think u are. u can learn to be less reliant on it once you’ve experienced it (and realised it’s not all it’s cracked up to be lol) but i hope ur okay sending love ur way!

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Till The Last Page's avatar

Yeah been nursing my wound as well as I can. Considering she has experienced both hookups and a boyfriend, I realise she does not understand my dilemma. She is past questioning her attractiveness so cannot really teach her empathy.

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precious's avatar

“I feel stupid and pathetic when I like someone like I would walk miles out of my way home just for the chance of bumping into them”

I literally gasped here, I relate to this part so damn hard. I feel so seen right now <3

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fawn girl ☆'s avatar

aww tysm!! i think it can be very painful being a sensitive soul, but it’s also very beautiful, i hope you embrace that aspect of yourself ⭐️⭐️

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ava grace's avatar

I FEEL ALL OF THISSS. the part about romanizing them has happened to me so many times and I recently just got out of it. I keep giving my time to the wrong guy :( i hope we both find someone who feels right

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fawn girl ☆'s avatar

it’s a rlly easy thing to do! but i think meeting the right person will mean you will love the realness of them, instead of the fantastical version😭

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hannah bible's avatar

wow does this hit!!! i also felt slighted in the romantic sense for ages. like no one really got me, much less chose me. but somehow that hunger kept growing. i yearned for the love you described. but i questioned if i was worthy of it because of my failed dating experiments… and i think self-rejection became a similar ouroboros prophecy that always fulfilled itself.

you clearly have a rich inner world and appreciation for beauty. and while your mind may feel chaotic, it also seems like a lovely place to live. keep cultivating your inner world, keep loving your friends and your life, romanticize it all to your hungry hearts content.

I don’t know how old you are, but I’m 30 and so much of my blossoming has just happened in the past few years. I never had a boyfriend until i met my now husband. dating him disproved my worst theories.. it just takes one person. it was worth holding out for. and i had to rewrite everything i thought about being “undateable”

i believe you’ll meet that right person!!!

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fawn girl ☆'s avatar

tysm for such a lovely comment and ur kind words!! i rlly appreciate it :)

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ems's avatar

I feel so seen and so understood by your words and I think that’s the highest form of regard for writing <3 thank you

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fawn girl ☆'s avatar

wow tysm that is a massive compliment! 😭

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Priscilla's avatar

Feeling so well described the parts always hiding within

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sofie's avatar

Thank you for this, my emotions re arranged and this was lovely <3

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fawn girl ☆'s avatar

ty for reading!! glad u enjoyed it ⭐️

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Natalie's avatar

out of curiosity are you a rising capricorn? i’m asking cause i relate to this so hard

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clara's avatar

i feel so seen with this, it's like you've read my thoughts and written them down in a beautiful way

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fawn girl ☆'s avatar

wow tysm for such a lovely comment!! glad it resonated with you so well ⭐️

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Camila🌺's avatar

this is too real and relatable

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fawn girl ☆'s avatar

ty for reading! glad u liked it :)

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